Trust or Control

The opposite of trust is control.
Guilty.

After 45 years of living, I can honestly say I’m a recovering control freak. I’ve tried to control situations… even people. And yet, my efforts never produced the progress my heart was truly seeking.

Control only creates more stress, more heartache, and more frustrated relationships.
But God… God gives us the key to living in freedom: trust.

The problem is, when trust has been misplaced, it can feel risky to activate it again. I’ve trusted people who used me. I’ve trusted friends who disappointed me. I’ve trusted myself and I’ve been wrong.

This is where Proverbs 3:5–6 anchors my soul:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to Him,
and He will make your paths straight.

This tells us that while we may not hold all the answers, the God who does holds us. It reminds us that where we see limits, our limitless God sees a way. It assures us that obedience, even when it sounds unreasonable, produces the clarity and direction we’re desperately seeking.

None of this is easy. But from experience, I can tell you: trust authors peace, provision, and healing.

In 2021, during a daily walk, I heard the Lord whisper, “You will experience a cancerous situation.” I didn’t understand what it meant, but I knew I could trust Him with everything, even my health.

In 2022, I released my first book, the one God had told me I would write ten years earlier. I had to trust Him with the timing and with every word.

In 2023, during my daily devotion, the Lord whispered, “Follow Me into broad places.” I responded, “Where are we going?” With an invitation to trust like never before, He replied, “It’s time to let go of your job. Follow Me.” I had to trust Him for direction.

In 2024, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. But God had already prepared me. That year, I learned to trust Him for provision.

In 2025, I entered the year healed. Words He had spoken to me in my early 20s echoed again:
“Walk through every door I open for you, and one day you’ll wake up and think, ‘How in the world did I get here?’”
I trusted God as I stepped into a new career, and through that trust He not only provided, He blew my expectations out of the water. He didn’t change my ministry, He changed my trajectory and enlarged my tent.

And now here I am, January 4, 2026, my 45th birthday, trusting God once again.

I’m trusting Him with dreams that haven’t yet come to pass.
With strained relationships.
With loved ones who are far from Him.
With my daughter studying abroad and my son preparing to graduate.
With needs only He knows.

But history has taught me where to lean when control tries to rise up and anxiety tries to creep in.

The one thing I know for sure is this: I am secure in His hands.

I submit.
I surrender.
I trust Him, fully and completely.

And may this be an encouragement to you to do the same. No matter what 2026 throws your way TRUST Him with it ALL!